ramblings of former days... and future ones...

i went to my sister's eighth grade graduation today... hard to believe she's in high school... and it doesn't seem like as long as 3 years ago that my class was standing singing that really really long song "auld lang syne" with our arms around each other... gosh i'm such a sap...
what's even weirder is that we're pretty much seniors... odd really.. it's like... when you're in grade school... anyone that's in high school is like an adult ya know? and then i got in high school and i'm like... wow i was so wrong... haha! seriously though...
i'm definately not ready to let go of this past years's seniors though... even people i don't really know that well, something next year will remind me of them and i'll miss them... which is kinda weird... i guess you just never really think about how attached you get to people until the fact that they're leaving smacks you in the face lol...
today was really fun though... we had girls day at my house and then went to dinner after the 8th grad... it was fun stuff... all 6(or 5) of us together gets pretty crazy lol... anyways... so yeah... i'm gonna go... cause i'm sure you're all tired of hearing (or seeing) me talk so much...

thirteen days and twenty-one hours ago
i thought i knew exactly where i was gonna go
but i never thought i'd get this far
two years ago there was nothing to it
i was sure i knew what to do and exactly how to do it
but can we really know who we are?
and how do we find our star?

i tried the best i could
to do everything i should
but i'm still falling short
of what i wanna be
i mess up so many times
so don't ask me why
but for some reason you're still here
holding me

sometimes i guess i just forget to say
thank you for being my strength everyday
thanks for picking me up every time i fall
someday i'm gonna find a way to show you
this comfort that you give-well i can give it too
but right now my problems seem so big and i just seem so small
and it feels like i shouldn't even be here at all

i tried the best i could
to do everything i should
but i'm still falling short
of what i wanna be
i mess up so many times
so don't ask me why
but for some reason you're still here
holding me

thank you for being my wings
when i can't fly
thank you for being there
when i just need to cry
thanks for listening
when all i can do is talk
and thanks for carring me
when i'm too weak to walk...

i think i've finally learned the meaning of the phrase "growing apart." i never really understood that... but now i think i do. i'm having to learn to let go of people... in more than one way. it's kinda a bittersweet feeling. you feel terrible that you let it slip through your fingers, and yet good because you've finally learned to let things be as they will and get on with your life.
i went to drop my sister off at the latin dinner and actually ended up staying... i didn't eat anything, but i had fun telling dumb stories... and listening to mandy laugh uncontrollably about something that no one else understood... but that's okay cause i do that all the time... as i'm sure you've learned by now.
i think i'm about the weirdest person i know... anyone else agree with me? seriously... i don't know how many times i said something the wrong way or did something terribly stupid tonight... oh well... i guess i wouldn't be the same sarah you all know and at least pretend to love if i wasn't that way...

well i think you know you hurt me
but i can't put up a fight
won't you look me in the eyes and say
that this is what feels right
cause the one thing that i'm living on
is the memory of that night
and nothing keeps me going
but my longing for the light

well i just can't let go yet
please don't ask me to forget
i think i'm willing to bet
that this is something you'll regret
this is something i don't get

i know you think you're something
and you figure it's okay
just to drop me in the dust
but i hope you see the day
when you realize you want me back
and i'll laugh to hear you say
that "it wasn't meant to hurt so much"
don't all our plans end up that way

well i just can't let go yet
please don't ask me to forget
i think i'm willing to bet
that this is something you'll regret
this is something i don't get
you're someone i don't get
but this isn't over yet

web silence...

some people find it hard to believe that i can be so incredibly talkative in person and then be so... not talkative when i'm online... but everyone needs to shut up once in a while... people would get even more sick of me than they already are... which is quite a bit lol
i think i talk too much... haha! yes girls
i think sometimes it's just better not to say anything... cause usually when i'm really quiet it's cause i know i'll get myself in trouble if i say very much on the subject lol... isn't that just like me though...

and so i've finally joined the "bloggers"... but i don't have time right now unfortunately...